FYI - Filthy Dogs!

Every woman in this entire planet is a 'slut' to someone or the other and that's a hard truth. Being a woman myself, I've learnt things the hard way.  One such lesson is that, you can  never shut the mouth of those dirty dogs wagging their tongue against you. They keep wagging until they find their next prey and some other dog will start doing that to you. It's more like a  circle of filthy dogs taking rounds to bark and through hell on you. And unfortunately, these filthy dogs are not always men; even women target their peers and you can call   it jealousy!

Their idea of 'slut' starts when they see you hanging out with men, different men, multiple men, they call you a 'slut'. Then you post your picture with a guy on your Facebook profile or Twitter account, only to let them re-confirm that whatever they had thought of is absolutely true.They are so ignorant to know that there's something called 'friendship' and men n women can share purely platonic relationships with each other.

No matter whatever you do, no matter however you behave, at some point, you'll be called a 'bitch'. If you are not friends with men, then you are secretive and is not 'good' inside, if you have many male friends, you are still not good! They expect you to live the way they want, without offending them and just listen to whatever they say! And if you think it's because you are single, nah! That's not the case! Even married/engaged women are targeted. And trust me, the things been said about them are even worse!

These It's quite obvious that I've taken the same crap too, for the crappy reasons they have, and the crappier mentality they possess. And for me, the way they think can't be changed, as that's how they are, or that's what they've seen in their family! The more you try to justify your side to anyone, the crappieryou are gonna get! And I wonder why majority of our people are so jobless!

So ladies, live the life the way you want, and don't effing give an eff to anyone around. IT'S YOUR LIFE, IT'S NOW OR NEVER, YOU AIN'T GONNA LIVE FOREVER! ;)

All that matters

She was standing half naked in front of the mirror, rubbing her left breast. That comparatively big, taste-like-ham and beautiful, as he says, breast has lost its charm, she thought. Discolored and disfigured, it has lost it all. She had always thought he loved her breasts more than herself, and that very thought irked her. Now that one of them is going to be removed, she feared, he would no longer be hers!

Breast cancer, as fierce  as it sounds, has been holding her tight for the past few days, and as doctor instructed, she had to undergo this surgery as early as possible. Knowing him for years, she knew he would never leave her, but all that she was afraid about was losing his love.

 "I would have wanted to die instead of living without his love", she sighed. 

Those breasts had been her secret pride as he always loved fondling them and made it his first choice to do  before making love to her. And now, will he ever do that? Will he ever look at her the way he always did? She couldn't think more!

While she was plunging into thoughts, he slowly came inside the room. She suddenly took a towel from the hanger and hid her breasts. She never did that before, but now, it was more like a reflex action. There was a perplexed look on his face as she did this. He came closer to her and slowly removed the towel from her chest. She stood there uncomfortable and with eyes wet.

 He knew, unlike other women, she wasn't afraid of death. And a surgery would just be a piece of cake. For a lady past her thirties, she's strong and matured enough to handle any tough situation. But may be this, he thought, would be bothering her a bit. Cancer is not a silly thing  and had to be taken care of and he could definitely figure out what she would be going through. 

He touched her cheeks, held her face up and looked into her eyes. She couldn't stop but cry. She hugged him tight and started crying like a  baby. He couldn't stand her cry either, but somehow gained courage and consoled her.

"My love, it's a minor surgery, and a couple of chemo. It's gonna be tough for both of us, but eventually, we would be happy once we face this. So please, stop worrying and gain some guts. You'll be alright"

"I know that", she said while weeping, "I'm prepared to face any agony, but living without you or your love would be hard for me more than anything"

"Whaaaa....tt?", he couldn't figure out what she was talking about. "Where am I going? What are you talking about?"

She wanted to tell him what was bothering her, but she didn't know how to put it. She walked past him, sat on the bed, looked down and told him, "I'm gonna lose one of my breasts; one of those you always loved to fondle, one of those you loved more than me... now that I've to live without it, I won't be the same like I used to be, things are definitely gonna change. I may not be able to give the pleasure you always got from me, or may be, you wouldn't want to touch me ever or something like that.. You'd slowly leave me, and I would be left alone forever"

Never in his dreams did he think, this would be the very thing bothering her. He couldn't really make out why she would think that way. He wondered how his girl could go to this extend and imagine such nonsense. He was shocked! He loved her, not her body or anything in particular and he believed she knew it!

"Why???", he shouted and walked past her. He couldn't utter another word. And she sat there, stunned. She realised, whatever she had thought was way too much. She didn't know what to say!

They both remained silent for a while. He, after sometime sat close to her touched on her shoulder and smiled at her. 

"Let's first survive the current situation and then think about the rest as it comes"

He then gently touched her right breast, smiled at her and said, "And for the breasts love that I've, I'm happy and content with this one"

He caressed it, smiled at her, and started kissing it like never before.

PS : Forgive if anything technical was mentioned wrong :)

Inspired from : P. Padmarajan's 'Shoorpanagha'

That bitch called LOVE

He no longer looked like the guy she knew. Those chubby cheeks aren't chubby anymore; the potbelly he had, is not visible. He looks fit, smart, amazingly charming and younger for a 30 year old except for the grey hair that started appearing round his hair and the goatee he possessed. For the person that she is who notices every single thing about him, these changes amazed her. Though she wondered how a person can change so much over an year's time,  these changes weren't actually 'changes' that anyone who just knew him would notice, and she wasn't someone who 'just knew'  him! Except for his physical appearance, and may be the love he had for her,  everything else remained intact. The charm, and the personality that he is, hasn't worn out, and she feared, she would fall for him all over again!

They have known each other for over 7 years and there was something about him that made her fall for him the moment they met! She had never thought that he's handsome or cute like the rest of the men she knew, but this guy had something worth tripping for. And may be, that something has made her want to meet him and  talk to him now after an year.

They both have moved on, literally. But for her, it was more of pretending to be moved on than it rather was!

They had now came to this unknown place to talk after ages, but he got involved in his daily  fitness training and she, as always, ended up watching him, than uttering a word. She realised, he has now become a fitness freak and may be that's to keep himself away from all the worries he had. She felt bad that she could never help him with his chaos, but instead added up to it, and that made them part like strangers! 

She was watching him without blinking wee bit until her eyes were filled. Watching him made her think, "Wasn't he the guy I always wanted to spend the rest of my life with? Don't i still want that? Will i ever be able to tell him what I feel?" 

She thought she would meet him, and  ask him whether they can be 'friends' again, but watching him this close made her realise that she can never do that; She still loves him and he's always more than a friend to her, and that bitter truth hurt her. She might never have expressed it to anyone, but the past one year without him was miserable for her. Deleting his pictures from her mobile phone or erasing his text messages and emails never helped her. Everything changed, but still the love she had for him didn't! 

He took an hour to wind up his training; he got freshened up and walked towards her. He sat next to her and started talking as if nothing happened ever between them. And she did what she always loved to do -  listen to him. He had indeed moved on a lot more than she did! and she's still there were they had left it!

She came to know that he has finally decided to get married, to someone else, of course. Good for him!  She told him even her parents have started looking out! Only if she hadn't made things tough for him with her insecurities and demands, life would have been easier for both of them and they didn't have to search for someone else to spend the rest of their lives with.

They got comfortable with each other all over again and shared a lot of things they haven't for the past one year, except for the things she wanted to tell him. For someone who didn't seem to have any feelings  for her, how would she say that she was sorry and wanted another chance? How would she tell him that she still loved him and wanted to be with him? She didn't mention anything and pretended as if she had moved on too.

After a while, they parted, for their surprise, with smiles on their faces! 

May be they would become friends again, or would never talk to each other. May be they would see again or would not meet at all. May be they would get married to each other or attend each other's wedding with someone else. And it all depended on how he wanted things to be, as her deeds had already made her lose the rights to take a decision on what they would be doing about 'their' future.

She got back to her world cursing  that bitch called LOVE who left her perplexed and made her look like a stupid, and insisted her to keep hope that someday he would call her back and everything would fall in place and may be the meeting they just had was a glimpse of what the future holds !