Sometimes all you want to do is just stop pretending to be bold and brave and just break down. Hug the next person appearing in front of you, hug them tight and just yell out that you are not okay and you need help. To have someone who would just sit by your side without questioning or judging is indeed a big deal, and not many are lucky enough to get that company.
I have always tried to be that someone to atleast one person I have met and fortunately wasl successful. All thanks to what I go through on a regular basis and the struggle to fight it out, all alone. And that's not easy. Because people want you to behave a certain way; no matter how much you don't care about what others say or do or expect, sometimes you fall into that trap of pretending to be something they want you to be, not because you are afraid. Its just the realisation that they are not meant to stick through your downs or are ready to understand you ever.
Loneliness isn't easy. You may turn it to solitude and find solace, but loneliness will hit you hard, and beat you down. You ought to pick yourself up, because you have no other choice. No one is going to do that for you. If someone did, you wouldn't be going through this shit on first place.
Sometimes, out of helplessness, you turn to someone for help, you explain what you are going through and request them to help you. But, all you would get in return would be worse than your real issue. They expect you to explain what exactly your problem is and how they could help you. What they don't realise is, if you knew what it was or had a solution, you wouldn't be seeking help on first place. All you need is someone who can just be a listener. And make you feel that you are not alone. Someone who would ask you "are you okay?" when you are not and just sit and listen without complaining or show the practical side of life. But who has time for all that, right?
But, that's okay. Sometimes you gotta lose hope in people in order to build faith in yourself. Your problem is just yours; no one else is going to share it with you. Be it your agony of living next to the love of your life who is already married, or your parents being more considerate to your sibling or the physical pain you are going through or your fear of being judged or mistreated or not having a life that you deserve or losing someone you love to the hands of death or being sad for unknown reasons - whatever it be only you can help yourself. Honestly, even you wouldn't pay a heed to another to their 'pointless' cribbing or whining. So be it. Just deal with it.
You are not born to quit. You gotta try, try try try and try. You may still not win. But you gotta try. You should never stop loving people just because they are not loving you back. Stay selfless if that's the way you are. Never lose your style, because that makes you you and noone should change that. Just lowering your expectations would do the rest. Loneliness would still hit you hard, but you need to bounce back until death captivates you. Otherwise, what's the point in living all the while.
I have always tried to be that someone to atleast one person I have met and fortunately wasl successful. All thanks to what I go through on a regular basis and the struggle to fight it out, all alone. And that's not easy. Because people want you to behave a certain way; no matter how much you don't care about what others say or do or expect, sometimes you fall into that trap of pretending to be something they want you to be, not because you are afraid. Its just the realisation that they are not meant to stick through your downs or are ready to understand you ever.
Loneliness isn't easy. You may turn it to solitude and find solace, but loneliness will hit you hard, and beat you down. You ought to pick yourself up, because you have no other choice. No one is going to do that for you. If someone did, you wouldn't be going through this shit on first place.
Sometimes, out of helplessness, you turn to someone for help, you explain what you are going through and request them to help you. But, all you would get in return would be worse than your real issue. They expect you to explain what exactly your problem is and how they could help you. What they don't realise is, if you knew what it was or had a solution, you wouldn't be seeking help on first place. All you need is someone who can just be a listener. And make you feel that you are not alone. Someone who would ask you "are you okay?" when you are not and just sit and listen without complaining or show the practical side of life. But who has time for all that, right?
But, that's okay. Sometimes you gotta lose hope in people in order to build faith in yourself. Your problem is just yours; no one else is going to share it with you. Be it your agony of living next to the love of your life who is already married, or your parents being more considerate to your sibling or the physical pain you are going through or your fear of being judged or mistreated or not having a life that you deserve or losing someone you love to the hands of death or being sad for unknown reasons - whatever it be only you can help yourself. Honestly, even you wouldn't pay a heed to another to their 'pointless' cribbing or whining. So be it. Just deal with it.
You are not born to quit. You gotta try, try try try and try. You may still not win. But you gotta try. You should never stop loving people just because they are not loving you back. Stay selfless if that's the way you are. Never lose your style, because that makes you you and noone should change that. Just lowering your expectations would do the rest. Loneliness would still hit you hard, but you need to bounce back until death captivates you. Otherwise, what's the point in living all the while.
