Falling in love with you wasn't a choice.
When I first met you, you were probably the first person of the opposite gender with whom I could associate, on a deeper level. Years went by, and I met so many men - relationships, dates, friends... Yet I couldn't find another man who is as pure as you.
You often tell me that you are an ordinary man, with ordinary life and dreams. May be you are, but I have never come across a human being who is so exceptional, kind, genuine, loving and loveable.
I fell for you, but life had other plans. You chose someone else, and my heart broke into a million pieces. But, it helped me move on, (or so I thought) than clinging on to something that was never mine.
And then men hopping happened, from one to another, but the worst part of it all is, I was looking for you, in all those men.... the benchmark is so high... no one could really be you. It never occurred to me that you are and will always be my only choice. Until this night happened.
The moment your lips touched mine... Your body intertwined with mine... That moment... was surreal.
It reminded me of "Love in the Time of Cholera". I am Florentino Ariza, who waited over 50 years to embrace the love of his life, Fermina. Maybe, we will have such a beautiful ending, maybe not... either way, I am happy to experience this moment, lying in your arms, listening to your heartbeat... making me feel ecstatic.
This moment wasn't a choice either, but it occurred, to heal my mind and body.
Yes, I am healed, I can now finally move on, realising that I will never love another man as much as I loved you. And also that, I will love you, till death and beyond.
This realisation took years, but I think that's my closure. I will finally stop looking for you in other men because now I know no one can be you...
I will move on, cherishing the moments we shared, knowing that this isn't love a second time, but the love that I always chose to ignore.
Yes, I will finally move on, always remembering that no one can replace you in my life.
